What a boring week ~ .......biasa la..kalo tak ice..aku plak yg post...yg lagi satu ntah sesat pat planet mana tah.......hmm in fact im so bored sey...mayb cos i didnt work la...Regards on my post title wats ur definition of frens or what actually frens mean ?? And to what xtend u can rely on them ????? After my sms to & from ice ...im thinkin ........mayb i overreact ...or perhaps ..i am rite ? that they just treat me as passer by ? hmm...n yes ..........i am sensitive...isnt it gals is more sensitive ...but at least i dun take advantage of d ppl ard me ...but i dunno y they just like to criticize me wit words like,sensitive,childish, n so on ...be it frens,family,or even a guy who's been wit me for almost 3yrs ...E one who like to control my life...who will wan to control...wat time i sleep..wat time i wake up..making sure i went for interview...n makes me promise sumthin wich i didnt wan like promise to go out wit my frens once a mth ...n to go home b4 midnite ...Let me tell u gals...never once i kept tat promise of mine ...Betweeen ...frens & him...who do i choose ?? I said it b4 ...n still i choose frens ...I know he's hurt ....i ruin all his dreams ..in makin me d best in his life ...But im sorry...cant fulfil tat dream of his ...Only God knows ...how hard is it for me to b in between my frens n bf ....no matter how hard ...i just have to face it rite ?? Ice kau pernah ckp ngan aku..kau tahu aku in difficult position between korang n bf aku ...tapi aku tak pernah anggap susah tu semua ...Cos aku percaya one day ...he will get to understand kehidupan aku dan org2 di samping aku...No matter korang make fun of him ...or me ...or how our relationship is ....i try to treat it s a joke ...n ice...tak yah say sorry ...cos i never take it seriously...Like how i wan him to understand my frens...i oso wan u gal to see ...in fact ...he's not tat bad ...
Ice......aku tak tahu perhaps kau tgh marah ke apa ...well u got d right to b .......I admit i overrreact.....Things have not been goin my way ...kinda fed up wit my life...i just wish ...i lost my memory....2 many hurt things i kep inside ... n i worry its runnin out of space ...My family,relationship...n more to come perhaps frens...It never came across my mind tat he is the reason for u all to stop asking me out..as i got curfew or like sam's bf say i got to punch card ? ...u say it or sam say it ...or both of u ...i dunn wanna know...God knows...whoever ssay it...tat person only know rite ....i just can say ...u all r just selfish ....only tink of ur own feeelings ...hmm ice u know me rite..i mite say some hurtful things...but u know i dun mean it all the time ...tats my weakness i guess ....so relax..i promise to teman u to airport tiz comin tues ...n i promise helen 10 Aug to go to d funfair ord...so i wil still take part lo .....In future .....i dare not say la ...sad to say ..dissapointd to hear all that from u n sam ah ...I just hope ...i cud handle d situation better...n all the best to our frenship ...just rem gals...even if im not allow to join in ..i sure find ways to join u gals...n not bcos he dun allow ...n u gals just just kick me aside ...u know tat kinda feelings ..quite dissapointing to get it from ur own frens ...especially..d close ones ..
Tiz is d first time aku post on sumthing so emotional..cant help it la ....im gonna find a job soon ..am serious la ..so i can just go on wif my pitiful life ....k ah tats all gals...bye..
Saturday, August 2, 2008
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